Saturday, March 05, 2011

Nothing but time

I was sitting in the tax office, annoyed that I was killing a Saturday doing nothing and/or having to do taxes, which I'm tired of doing already this season. I took a break and went up to McDonald's for breakfast and to read my book for a little while. Eventually, I had to come back and I was considering what to do.

I'm not doing any more practice problems. I don't have any drop off returns to do. I spent the first wasted hour and a half this morning reading tax updates. I thought about writing in the notebook that I've started carrying about with me. Then I remembered that I have access to this blog page. The system blocks personal email and social networking sites, so I can't get to my gmail account or facebook, but it lets me through to blogspot, which uses a google sign on.

I have no excuse not to write if I have the time and capability.

Editing note: I edited the first sentence where I had first written "a little annoyed" and tightened it up to "annoyed." The edit was a result of coaching by Dr. Hill who advised me once about putting a word out there - "annoyed" in this case - then pulling back from the full emotion by modifying with "a little." I know I speak this way in an attempt to soften the blow of the statement.

Introspection note: If I'm needing to soften the blow of a statement, should I even be making it? That is, either I think something needs to be said and I should just say it, or I should keep it to myself. I can think of a few situations where this would apply. For example, I was telling Daphne at the office that I am trying not to yell at my children. This means that sometimes I will have to just walk away from the chance to have a really loud fight. It also means that sometimes, especially with Thing 2, that I will have to do what needs to be done (i.e., some household task that I'd previously delegated). I am also trying not to engage in pointless blame passing at work: "I wasn't supposed to do that:" "I told so-and-so to do that;" etc. Ask me later about the zen parable that is influencing my thinking here.

Ooooh, tax client is here. Back to work.

~N.